I am new to this whole world of blogging but two people have been amazing enough to send me an award, which I am truly honored about. There are three questions associated with this cupcake of a prize.
1. Answer the question: If you had one chance to go back and change one thing in your life, would you and what would it be?
This is a hard question as I am one of those people who believe that everything in your life comes from your experiences. I love where I am right now and I attribute that to both my good and bad decisions. While I have definitely had my host of awful, awful decisions, actions, and memories, I have come to grips that they are the glue which has made me the stronger person I am today.
If forced to choose a decision I would change, I would have to pick an entire category – men. I have the worst taste in men. Are you moody? Have mommy issues? Unable to commit? Show little to no emotion? – then I am immediately attracted to you. I have turned down a host of men who are upstanding, demonstrative, and - by all objective means - perfect to chase after men who can’t decide whether they really want me or not. I have spent my time on men who do not want the same things as I do and have made me feel terrible for caring so much about them. I could blame one on a freak of nature but after several of these horrible-from-the-start relationships, I have come to the conclusion that it has to be me! Perhaps I sabotage my relationships because I am really not ready for one. Perhaps it is my own fears and self loathing which make me reach out to men that will not make treat me like a princess and a prize. Currently I am coming to grips with this idea and while I will not take back those moody and untenable men of my past, I am looking forward to finding healthier relationships in the future. (As a side note, my college roomies and best friends have instituted a new rule where they have to approve of my man choices should I continue to seek out losers).
So there, it isn’t really something to change about my past but my answer is really something I have decided to change because of my past. With this I give a firm shout out to all the emotionally stinted men that have inadvertently taught me I deserve something better!
2. Pick 6 people and give them this award. You then have to inform the person that they have been selected for the award.
These people have probably already gotten this award (and by probably I mean many times over) but I thought it would be nice to give a shout out to some of the women I follow and who have been kind and supportive of me. I find all these women, plus so many more, truly moving and motivational. Here goes:
Lap Band Gal (http://lapbandgalsjourney.blogspot.com/)
3. You have to thank the person (people) who gave you the award.
Thanks so much Pamela (http://lessthanfat.blogspot.com/) and Amanda (http://lifeofahopefulloser.blogspot.com/) for thinking I am worthy of any kind of award. I am only a little further (seriously, only a month or so) ahead on this road than you two and I feel like we all have great times and great accomplishments ahead. I admire both of you for taking the chance, taking charge, and joining this virtual group of women. I have found it so empowering in my short month or so online. Good luck Amanda on your impending surgery and good luck Pamela on your first fill - I cannot wait to share in your future successes.